Hope...

Went to see him today... His condition was getting worse... Nobody knows for how long more he can live...
I'm a free-thinker, but nevertheless, I'm praying... Praying for a miracle... Praying that whatever happens next, I'll be able to cope...
Nobody knows how terrible I'm feeling inside... I may look happy and are still joking around, but nobody knows how afraid and how helpless I feel... But I just can't show it... I dread the time i visit him every week, cos I just feel so helpless seeing him suffer but i can do nothing to help... I just hope there's someone i can turn to when i need it...